I Cut My Own Baby’s Flesh!
Nothing makes you feel bad enough than living with the guilt that you had hurt your own child. On the day that Baby C was hospitalized for yet another UTI attack and had to be put on IV drips last Friday, I had accidentally cut her flesh whilst trimming her finger nails. They say that sometimes when it rains, it pours and I find this adage so true. I have never ever cut my 3 gals’ flesh before when I trim their nails and why of all days, I had to accidentally cut Baby C’s flesh…. of all days and of all my 3 kids? Why must it be Baby C who had already suffered so much pain? Sigh…..
The bleeding was profuse and it took me over an hour to stop the bleeding!! It wasn’t really a deep cut but I didn’t know why the bleeding was so profuse. I heard the sound ‘jhop‘ the second I pressed the nail clipper on her supposedly finger nail. I tell you, I was scared to death that she would bleed to death! I had used the compression method by pressing on the wound but the bleeding wouldn’t stop. Jinx, jinx, jinx… that’s all I could think of on that day. It was a pathetic scene. Baby C already had a bandange and an IV line on her right hand and her left thumb was bleeding profusely with blood everywhere on my clothes and on the floor. Oh gawd, I prayed and prayed so hard that the bleeding would stop. Finally, I bandaged the left cut thumb with some gauze and surgical tapes and the bleeding subsided a tad. Though bandaged, I could still see blood seeping out through the gauze. I was really, really scared and worried! After more than an hour, the bleeding stopped. I felt as though my heart was cut into a zillion pieces. I just can’t imagine how those parents who had accidentally caused the death of their child must have felt. The feeling must have been suisidal!